I’ve been creating a new e-portfolio , which invariably means taking down the old one. Just to clarify, this is my blog, not my e-portfolio, so this one is going nowhere. But as I was shutting down my old website, I found this little nugget, which I can’t bring myself to delete. It captures exactly where I was in 2012, and I’m excited because it doesn’t quite capture where I am today.
It belongs on a blog more than an e-portfolio anyway.
I am from a peach-dappled dining room,
From Dunkin’ Stix and Sour Cream Pringles,
piled high in a pie tin.
I’m from the St. Francis birdbath, out front by the fire hydrant.
(Shiny and dry,
waiting with kindly confidence.)
I am from the seconds counted between the lightning and the thunder,
when afternoon storms pour into the
through Burke’s Garden, around Hungry Mother, and all the other
ordinary places with
from stories meant to be crawled into
like a root cellar
like an empty box behind Ace Hardware.
down by the Laundromat,
From Betty and Bub and the man with the impossibly crooked beard (Grandma said he married a witch).
I’m from the screenless attic window,
the steaming cab of the pickup,
the carport strangled and tangled for eternity in trumpet vine,
listening to Otis Redding and waiting—waiting out the breathless hour before Dark.
Black-soled feet and Black-soled Danskos,
both filthy with living and
leaving a trail across the linoleum.
I’m from little Uncle Jimmy left at a gas station,
and the little broken flower,
swept to the corner of the hospital room
after unforeseen complications.
the grungy rasp of the secret cancer,
the unspoken jaundice of badness,
the crackle snapping through the air seconds
before the alarm sounds.
I am from a breath held just so the baby who hasn’t cried yet doesn’t have to be alone.
Lives a faded teal suitcase—a tote, really.
Heavy with a blanket, a ring box, maybe a Bible,
and a sandwich bag of thank you notes, baby pictures nestled inside,
held carefully in the dark.
Acknowledged for being unacknowledged
like a dusty saint,
like a 7/11 chrysanthemum,
perhaps like a held breath,